Well, now the past week or so it's been really hitting me that I have a daughter in High School! Ack! I just don't feel like I should be old enough for that.
Where did the time go? How am I at this point in my life already and is this what it was supposed to be like? I've always had a issues with being happy and satisfied with my life and how it was going....battling depression. But lately with the 40th coming up, registering my daughter for HS and not being happy with my current job it seems to be getting to me even more.
I'm really not sure what, if anything to do about it. Do I try to change something in my life and if so what? I feel like I'm going through some sort of crisis. I've discussed it with hubby and he just doesn't get it. He's not bothered at all by the fact that we are 40 and have a high schooler. I wish I could be more like him sometimes. So laid back about stuff.
When I was a kid, that's all I wanted was to be grown up. Become an adult. Make my own decisions. Do whatever I wanted to do. I had this idea that everything would be better when I was an adult. I pictured everything differently.
I don't know exactly what I thought my life would be like at this point. Didn't necessarily have an outline of how things were going to go and what I'd be doing but I think I had this notion that being an adult would be so great and glamorous.
Well guess what? It ain't always so glamorous!