Wednesday, January 28, 2009

The Big 4-0

Later this year (November 17th to be exact) I'll be turning the big 4-0!

I've been thinking about it quite a bit lately. Well, since I turned 39 two months ago.

I was discussing it with a coworker who turns 30 this year. She's all freaked out about turning 30 and wants to live it up this year. She thinks I should do the same and do everything she does. Trust me, that ain't gonna happen. She's a tad on the wild side and has already done at least one thing I want no part of. Who know what else she's up to. I am considering that tattoo though ;)

Anyway, 30 didn't really bother me. It was no big deal. But 40? That's a different story. That just sounds older. I don't feel like I should be 40 already! There are things I haven't done yet and not sure if I ever will.

I'm starting to have thoughts like "Where has the time gone?" "What have I accomplished?" "Now what?" "Is this it?" I'm starting to wonder if I should have done things differently, made different choices.

I guess when I was younger I thought I would have had it figured out by now. Knew what I wanted to do with my life, had that "dream" job. But I don't. It can get kind of depressing.

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this post. Guess I just wanted to get it out. Any thoughts? Advice?


Aim said...

I'm only a couple of months behind you and I'm kind having the same issues. I want to have more fun and enjoy life, the kids, time with hubby. School is seriously hurting that. Maybe we should do something together to celebrate 40.

Amy said...

I am in the same boat as you. I just turned 39 and it's killing me. I do not want to be 40. I am in complete denial that I am THAT old.

Jenners said...

Well, I turned 41 this year and my big 40 was the year before. (Duh.) At that point (and still now), I was a stay-at-home mom (without a job) and kind of wondering "well, where are you going now?" But you know what, I just don't care anymore. You can strive and strive and strive and maybe it won't do anything for you. I'm really really happy right now in my little life without many achievements and I think that is so freeing -- to stop trying so hard, to stop measuring yourself against outside markers. At 40, I think you should just start living for you and do what you like. Forget the rest ... life is too short. That is all my wisdom about being 40. Hope it helps!