Monday, January 3, 2011

Bring It On

Happy New Year!!

What's that you say?  I'm 3 days late?  Ya, I know.  Story of my life.  But to tell you the truth I was in absolutely no mood to be wishing people a happy new year on either New Years Eve or New Years Day.

The few days prior were not so great for me emotionally.  Most all of it completely my own doing.  My mind seems to be my own worst enemy.  I worry about things that haven't happened yet, I create all kinds of awful scenarios in my head, I'm the ultimate Negative Nelly. And it ultimately ruins my day or days at a time.  Don't see me blogging for days or weeks at a time......this is probably why!

But after a couple long, serious talks with my husband I'm feeling much better.  Many times when I do this to myself we end up fighting because he gets so frustrated with the way I think.  This time he is finally trying to listen to what I have to say. 

We have hopefully come up with some ways to turns things around. I want to make this a fun and more carefree year for me.  I want to stop worrying about things that haven't happened yet or things I can't control, stop being so concerned about what others think, stop being so uptight about everything, stop procrastinating, stop letting my own insecurities prevent me from doing things I want to do.  And most of all stop beating myself up for all.  And with the help, encouragement and little nudging from my husband I'm ready to make it work.

So 2011, I'm ready.

Bring it on!!

1 comment:

Amy said...

Good for you! I feel the same. And honestly it's probably why I have had a couple panic attacks, because of my worry wart ways. Ugh!

Best wishes for a better year for you!