Conversations

My kids will sometimes have the strangest conversations. And sometimes they are really profound. My 10 year old will come out with something that will sound like it came from a wise old woman. I always think I should blog them but when it comes time I can never remember what it was that was said that I thought was either so funny or intense. I want to try to be better at remembering them and maybe make this a regular part of my blog.

Yesterday they were talking about dreams and I happened to be on the computer at the time so I typed it up right away. I don't know why but this just really struck me funny......

Tiger: I never have dreams, except that one time when I was 5 and I dreamt
that giant potato was attacking us.

Skowt: Dreaming is the best part of sleeping. It's like watching TV.

Tiger: Yeah, but you can't pick the show.

Where's the off switch?

As if I don't worry about stuff enough during my waking hours, it has to enter my dreams too?!

I am one of the biggest worry warts you'll meet. Give me a scenario and I will find something to worry about. It may never happen.....but what if it does? My mind is always racing....it works it strange ways.

Three months from now I have plans to visit Tennessee for my cousin's wedding. I offered to do their wedding photos as my gift to them. I'm really excited to do this for them, but really nervous too!

Of course ever since they agreed to it I've been planning and thinking and yup, worrying! I want to be as prepared as I can. I don't want anything to go wrong and I don't want them to be disappointed.

I talked to my cousin's fiance a little the other night about what they were planning for the day. They do have a co-worker of her mom's who is a photography student who will also be there. I will be with the bride while she gets ready to take photos of all that while he is with my cousin taking photos of the guys. Then we will both be at the ceremony and reception. Does it take some of the pressure off......yes, at first. But then it also gets me thinking about possible problems with that too.

So while laying in bed the other night trying to fall asleep I was just thinking about ideas for photos to get during the day. Where we could go on the property and how to pose the wedding party. Fun stuff, nothing negative.

I wake up the next morning and had dreamt that while I was photographing some things and guests before the ceremony started my camera froze up and would not work. I was freaking out and could not figure out what the problem was. It was scary!

Now, worrying about things while awake is one thing. But dreaming about them makes it all seem so much more real. I tend to have vivid dreams and wake up feeling the emotions from the dream. Not a good thing.

Can't I just turn my brain off?? Just for a little while. please?

Writer's Workshop: What's in a Name?

Mama Kats writers workshop

3.) What’s in YOUR name? What does it mean? Why was it given to you? etc..

LYNN

From an English surname which was derived from Welsh llyn "lake". Before the start of the 20th century it was primarily used for boys, but it has since come to be more common for girls. In some cases it may be thought of as a short form of LINDA or names which end in lyn or line.


Interesting that is was originally primarily a boys name. I've always thought of it more of a girl's name. I guess cuz I'm a girl! The only male I've ever heard of with the name is Lynn Swann, the former football player.

And as a far as it being short for LINDA........nope, uh-uh, don't you dare call me Linda! Don't like it. Also, I remember I once worked with someone named Linda and she wasn't always the sharpest tool in the shed. Anyway, one night another coworker called me Linda rather than Lynn and I just gave him a dirty look and said "My name is Lynn......no duh!" He laughed and never did it again.

My mom had really wanted to name me Karyn and spell it with the "y" to be different but my dad didn't like that idea. She tried to convince him but he wouldn't go for it so he suggested Lynn and my mom gave in and agreed to that.

It's warped into all sorts of nicknames over the years too. Lynnie, Lynnie-rie, Ninnie-rie, La-lu, Lar, (many of these because of my younger brother and cousins who couldn't quite pronounce it when they were little). I know weird hey?

There was Lenn (that one drove me nuts, my cousin for some reason developed and accent when she said my name!), Lyndsay.........Lyndsay Wagner (my dad used to call me that because of the bionic woman) and Lentil (given to me by my brother).

I guess I like my name. Never really given it much thought so I guess I don't hate it. Because if you hate it then you give it thought! The only thing that bothered me for a while as a kid was that it wasn't a longer name that you could shorten for a nickname......hence the longer or weird formations above.

Computer time?

How do you manage your time on the computer with the rest of your life? Do you limit your time, have a certain time of day you go on and stick to it?

I need help! lol

In 2010, I want to be more productive, procrastinate less, and stop wasting so much time! I keep putting off my photography goals because of it (not to mention my lack of self confidence but that's another story!) I really would like to make some money with it and not have to work my crummy part time job!

A big part of the problem is my computer time. I like blogging and reading others and finding new online friends, I like keeping in touch with friends and family through FB and a few other groups and social sites I belong to. I don't want to give it all up.....But sometimes it interferes with stuff I should be doing!

You know how it goes......I'm just gonna check my email quick, OK well what's up on twitter, FB? Gotta check out this video, so and so's pics, maybe I'll play Bejeweled Blitz for a bit. Let's check out the google reader and read a few blogs....from there you get 10 other links, books, movies etc. you want to check out. And it goes on and on and the next thing you know hours have passed and you've gotten nothing done! The kids will be home in five minutes and your afternoon was totally unproductive!

Or is that just me? lol

Last week was a bit better. I started putting things I wanted to do in my planner. At the suggestion of my husband who said maybe I need to start scheduling time for things I want to get done instead of just having a running list of tasks or projects. Actually pencil them in at a certain time on my planner. At first I thought he was crazy but I think it just may work for me if I keep at it.

My mind is racing

I finally have a day to sleep in and I can't! It's winter break for the kids but for the past week, even though they don't have school and I don't need to wake them up early I still had to get up because I worked all but Wednesday. Isn't that always the way life goes?

So today we don't have anything going on until this afternoon but I still woke up around 5 am! I did doze back off for a little while but woke up again around 6:30 and have been tossing ever since.

I got started thinking about the new year and some things I want to work on and get accomplished and my mind just starting racing. Usually once it starts I just can't relax. There's so much going on up there sometimes it scares me! Problem is it keeps me from doing things sometimes because I spend too much time thinking, planning and worrying if things will go the way I want rather than just doing those things.

I know I've been kind of vague about what I want to be doing but as they come up I'm sure I'll mention them here. I did start one project yesterday. To me this is a biggie and I'm not so sure I'll keep it up but I'm gonna give it my best. I love photography but sometimes I'll go for weeks without even picking up my camera. Which I don't like. If I'm going to keep learning and getting better I need to get out there and take pics. So I started a Project 365 to push myself to pick up that camera more often. Basically it's a year in photos. One photo a day for 365 days and what better day to start than January 1st?

I started a gallery on my smugmug site and I will also be posting them on my photoblog, though not necessarily every day. I will take them every day, but I may just post them weekly or every couple of days on my blog. We'll see how it goes and what other things I have going on. I know I have at least one trip planned this year where I may not have internet access everyday so in that case I will post when I get home.

Are you still with me?

I'm back. Did you miss me? Didn't think so!

I took a little unintentional break but I think it was a good thing. I was in the middle of NaBloPoMo so I was planning to post for at least the rest of November. I knew I was going to miss one day because of my bday weekend and feeling a little sick. But one day turned into two and before I knew it a month had passed.

I missed blogging but I'm glad I took a break. I was getting to the point where I was always obsessing about when and what I was going to blog about. Always questioning in my mind if something was "blog worthy". I've decided to come back and take a more laid back approach and not always be so concerned about how often I'm posting.

I also have some plans for the new year. Not necessarily resolutions but some things I want to accomplish. So I may not have so much time for blogging. I want to work on getting my act together and manage my time better so I'm able to accomplish those things and still be able to have my computer time.........maybe just not so much computer time! We all know how that can go!

And since it's January 1st I want to wish everyone a very happy, healthy and safe new year! Hope your 2010 is all you want it to be and more!